Growing A Beard, Yet Being A Girl.

Hi, Hello, how are ya'??? 

So this week was mental. I've been chosen to be a model for one of the girls in my class which is so cool, I physically can't wait. Here is a tester photo we did with the makeup she wanted to do on me. It's amazing what a bit of makeup can do for your face. I look like a real girl which, for anyone who knows me, is shocking!!! 

I cannot wait to see how this will look with the clothes and everything done with professional photography and everything!!! Also, look at that septum piercing though! Sorry mum. 

Now going from the pretty side of makeup, it got really weird on Tuesday when my friend Lauren decided to turn me into a wise old Chinese guy with a beard and moustache. see photo below.

Never in my life have I ever laughed so much!! It was so sticky, I had little hairs stuck to my face for ages. The glue refused to dry which made the cotton pads stick to my face. I cried with laughter, I had tears streaming down my face. That could also be because I hadn't slept for a good few days. Nicole (the girl I'm being a model for on Monday) has threatened me that if I don't get a good amount of sleep she'll murder me.. She's quite scary but I love her anyway.

Hanna keeps falling asleep as always. This time round I didn't manage to get a photo of her as I was too busy getting a beard. I have loads of assessments coming up, very excited to see how they will turn out. 

I don't really have much to talk about at the moment, sorry.

I'll see you all next time.

Nadia xxx

Another Day, Another Post.

Hello, Hi, Hey.

I'm quite proud of how many blog posts I've written recently, ok, it's not that many but still really good for me. Things have been busy, crazy, borderline manic. Why? I hear you ask. Well...

I have several assessments coming up, that's not too bad as it's makeup related and then we just have to do a professional photo shoot to go with it and print out our photos for our portfolios. For one of my assessments I have to make a prosthetic piece and make it fit into a scenario, that was pretty easy to think of. Another one we have to do an advertisement. I've chosen to do one that shocks. (I'll tell you all about it when it's done and then I can show you all the pictures, I don't want anyone to steal my ideas haha) I'll be using my friend Kai because I feel like he'll play the role amazingly and he'll be really overly dramatic about it. 

I'm currently writing this blog post in my friend Jess's bed, I finally have nails, the only problem is, I'm not used to typing with them yet and I keep missing letters out. 

Today Jess and I decided to take a trip into town to clear our heads (mainly my head, otherwise I over think things.) we did all the shops. I got my septum piercing changed, I'm soooooo happy that it looks good, I also bought a 6mm plug for my ear for when my parents visit so they won't have to look through a hole in my ear lobe - they would probably have a heart attack if they saw that. Yes, I'm now at 6mm, I know that in my last post I was only on 4mm. It's going well and I think I'll stick to 6mm for a while before trying my luck at going bigger. The other ear still hasn't budged since my last post, so nothing to report back there. We got bored of walking around shops and saw a really cute American style Diner, we had the most amazing milkshakes ever!! I honestly thought I was in a milkshake induced coma. We basically had to roll home. 

At the moment uni is great, I'm really enjoying everything we're doing, although some of the classes we have are slightly less exciting as it's stuff that most of us have already learnt which then makes us fall asleep. 

See exhibit A. Hannah fast asleep.

We had to buy KY Jelly for one of our special effects classes (don't ask) and instead of doing the normal thing and going on my own to buy the stuff I decided it would be an amazing idea to ask Kai to come with me. Now Kai doesn't do things by half, he will make anything hilarious. We walked into Boots and walked around trying to find the damned stuff. Could we find it?? NO! So we did what any sane person would do, we asked. The woman looked at both of us and then took us to the aisle we needed. As we went to pay Kai thought it would be a great idea to say some things he would do with said jelly with me (he's gay). You should have seen the woman's face at the till. I thought she would explode from embarrassment. I was trying so hard to keep myself from laughing out loud. I then wanted to buy some cards and stuff for birthdays- Kai's included- so I told him to wait outside while I chose his card and things. I was grabbing some wrapping paper when all I could hear really close to my ear was "PEANUT MUMANUMS, sorry I got bored" which made me A) Rip the paper B) Jump out of my skin and C) Want to smack him in the face. He thought it was hilarious. It wasn't. Then I was trying to pay for the things I'd bought without Kai seeing them, I was counting my money and all I could hear was "Boing, Boing, Boing" as Kai bounced his Super Natural poster off my head. By this point it was like shopping with a small child. We went back to boots afterwards so I could buy some Christmas presents, Kai decided he would sit on the floor while I looked around for the things I needed, he looked at me and asked me to come back and get him once I had finished. I did. We went to pay and I asked him if he could put the things in the card factory bag without looking in it. He got arsey with me and shouted "F@#! Off, you do it if I'm not allowed to look" and walked off in a huff. The girl behind the till looked shocked at how he had spoken I just told her it was like looking after a small child and from a far all I could hear was "I heard that!!!!!!" Despite it all I love him lots because he does know how to cheer me up.

Anyway, enough on that story, although I could go on and on about the silly things he's done. We keep telling him he needs to write a book.

So yeah, at this point in life Jess and I are listening to a bit of Busted so get ourselves pumped up for May when we can see them again. I'm going to finish writing this up now as I have honestly ran out of things to say and I keep singing the lyrics.
Thanks all for reading and I'll see you sometime in the near future,
Nadia xxx

The Manchester Life.

Hello, hi, how are ya'? It's been a while!!! I didn't realise how long it had been until I re-read my last post. It's been over a month. Shock horror. NOT!!

I can't believe I've lived here for almost 2 months, where is the time going? More to the point, where is my life going? Ok, let's not get dramatic here. Breathe in, and out. IN. OUT!!!! Ugh, not working. The only answer left is alcohol.

 Soooooooo.... Yeaaaaah.

Uni's been good. We've been learning how to make our own prosthetic pieces which was super interesting. I also fell asleep in one of my classes (thanks for the picture Hannah!!!) See exhibit A.

As you can see my face is fully smushed against the comfy seat in which my fancy leather trousers are sat upon, the position I held is as surprising to me as it is to you viewing it for the first time. I have no idea how that could have been comfortable but let me tell you, by God was it good. I caught up on at least 3 minutes of sleep. In my defence we were being told things I already knew, so I wasn't really missing much. It's become a running joke with the girls in my class, if they see me sleep, they laugh, take a picture and then kick me awake. Thanks girls! It's actually quite reassuring knowing someone will always be there to make sure I wake up. 

We have photography on Monday afternoons and its been ridiculously fun. Basically our tutor (Karl Pillington, not Pilkington, as he likes to remind us) gives us a camera and some lights and lets us piss around for 3 and a half hours. Which if you ask me, isn't a bad way to spend your afternoons. Below you will find one of said photos of us pissing around.

I like to think we have become one large dysfunctional family, we're always laughing and joking around. In that photo we used a sheet of purple plastic to change the colour of the background. I find it quite fascinating how it all works to be perfectly honest. There are many, many more cringy photos I could add in but I feel you may all lose the will to live if I showed you ALL of them. (There's about 170, I'm doing you a favour, trust me.)

Halloween is just round the corner (only 4 days to go) and I am beyond excited. I've got my new sfx kit thanks to the uni and I am ready to get creative!! I have loads of my friends asking me to do their makeup for the flat party we're having. I've got a werewolf, the mask, a burnt prisoner and a joker Mario thing. My own makeup will be epic, obviously. I plan on being a modern day Vampire (see True Blood) and have massive scratches coming down one side of my mouth, where I'll black out my tooth and make it look like one of my fangs has been ripped out. I had to get creative as I could only get one fang in, thanks mum for not giving me braces as a kid, I'm paying the price now, I'm going to have to be a dodgy Vampire. CHEERS!!! One of my friends is going as an old age Vampire and he bought this fabulous coat with a beautiful pattern on it. I then bought a corset online thinking nothing of it, when it arrived, turns out it's the exact same pattern as the coat. We go quite well together and I'm very excited to see how we are going to look standing next to each other.

It's currently 3.43 am and it's raining outside (obviously, this is Manchester), sleep has alluded me, hence the reason why the verbal diarrhoea has started. I realised just now, while writing this, that I use ( ) a lot. Like a ridiculous amount. I don't think there's anything wrong with doing that but I feel as though I should tone it down a bit. Let me know will ya'?

I dyed my hair again. Yes, I know, I dye it a lot. This time it's ginger on top and ombre ginger on the ends. The picture doesn't portray the ombreness that is my hair at this point.

I also got my septum pierced. Sorry mum. I think it looks bloody fantastic. My mother however will disagree and tell you I look like a bull. Each to their own I guess. And I think in my last post I had stretched my ears to 4mm, one is now 5mm and growing. I tried to stretch the other one but it was having none of it. I let it heal up and now I'm starting it from scratch, just to make sure there's no damage done. It's at a measly 2mm.

Other then that everything has stayed the same. My tan has gone and I now look pale as fuuuuuu- again. Oh well, one is not destined to be bronzed. 

I really am running out of things to tell you. I think I'll start writing little and often rather than leaving you all with a novel to read every month or so. It's rather unfair on you beautiful bunch to expect you to take a chunk out of your day to read about my life. (which if you ask me isn't that great anyway)

I adore you all so very much and I'm so glad you read my drivel that I post. Much love and all that jazz.

Nadia xxx 

The Check List Of Life.

Hi there and welcome to 'My life', that's basically how I feel like talking these days. Like one of those TV hosts like on the Price is Right or something. I know it's been just over a month (I think) since I've written anything of great interest. That's because I've had a lot going on. Let me go through it with you...

The last time I wrote a post was when I was in France. I was stretching my ears for the first time. Since then, I've stretched my ears 2 sizes up and I'm now having trouble stretching them again. I can get my taper through, but not my plug. If anyone knows why that is, feel free to tell me. Then I went back to Manchester to stay with my sister and her boyfriend for another 2 weeks, before moving into my halls. I've been here for 2 weeks already, yet it feels like I've known everyone for years and years. I live with 3 guys and to be quite honest, it's really good. It's a lot less stressful then living with girls. Everyone is so nice here and I'm having a really good time. I've had my induction day at uni and it went amazingly. I've been given my timetable and classes and I actually cannot wait to start (which is this Monday coming, so scary!!) I've bought my new kit which is full of delights. I was like a small child opening Christmas presents, jumping on the spot and everything!!!! I can't wait to play around with my new stuff. I've also had a visit back to Nottingham, where I met up with Catherine, my best friend. We had so much fun, we made home made pizza, crepes and hamburgers. It was like we were channelling our inner Jamie Oliver. We basically just chilled together and watched TV and vegetated. It was a beautiful moment. And I now miss her very much. Hopefully next time I see her it will be Halloween and we will dress up and scare the crap out of everyone!!!! 

Now, more on my new home. The first night I forced myself to join in with the party a girl was having in her flat, 2 floors up. At first I was reluctant because I didn't really drink that much. But once I got going it was a lot of fun. I've only had 2 days off from drinking since being here so I've had a total of 12 days drinking and being merry. It's ridiculous how quick time flies. We usually stick to flat parties but recently we decided to venture out into the heart of Manchester, we went into a gay club. That was a new experience. Never have I laughed and enjoyed myself as much as I did that night. It's probably a memory that's going to stick with me for a long, long time. I feel like I could live here for the remainder of my 3 years at university, and to be honest, I think I might. I've decided tonight is one of my nights off, I have to be up tomorrow in order to go to my beloved sisters house where I will receive a mini roast dinner. I'm drooling just thinking about it. Oh and she's going to do my washing for me. I literally have the best sister ever. (I hope she's reading this) 

I've been getting better at playing video games as well. One of my flatmates has an Xbox, and we've been playing constantly for about a week. I feel strongly enough to say I could beat a few people in Guitar Hero.... Should I be proud of that? Meh, I am!!! 

Currently laying in bed, contemplating my life choices and whether or not it's acceptable to eat something after having cleaned my teeth. I think we all know the answer to that one.

For the past few days I've been fat and eaten KFC for lunch and a fry up for breakfast. That, I am not proud of at all.

I feel that for now, that is all I have to say. (I hope that made sense) I hope you all had a great summer and that you're not too upset about having to resume school/college/uni.

Thanks all for reading, I'll see you next time.

Nadia xxx 

Stretching My Ears

Hiya, so I said I was going to keep you updated on my stretching process and I am. In this post I'll be telling you what I did, how I did and anything else you might want to know if you wanted to stretch your ears too. Side Note: I am not an expert in any of this, I did a little bit of research and I feel like I know what I'm talking about to a certain extent, but in no way am I qualified to tell you if something is wrong, etc... I hope you understand. So, let's get started.

To start off with I did research into stretching to make sure I felt comfortable. I researched the best size to start with and how to go about this process. I read that the best size to start with when going from a normal ear piercing is 1.6mm which is a 14 gauge. Now that's not very big at all, but I didn't want to strain my ears and have them bleed or split from over stretching them to start with. I went to my favourite piercing website blue banana. I have most of my piercings done there so I knew I could trust the site. I bought a steel PVD stretcher in 1.6mm and from Amazon I purchased my steel flesh tunnel in 1.6mm aswell. In addition I also bought a tub of Vaseline and disinfectant. Those two things are crucial if you want to do it safely.

Steel PVD stretcher

Stainless steel flesh tunnel

Front view of flesh tunnel

First I took my original earrings out and disinfected the holes. I thoroughly washed my hands and the stretcher and then disinfected the jewellery. Then I put plenty of Vaseline on both the ear hole and the stretcher to ensure that I wouldn't rip the existing hole. Now you have to go slowly when pushing the stretcher through your ear, if you go to quickly you could rip and make your ear bleed. If your ear does bleed or it hurts remove the stretcher straight away and leave it alone. All you should feel is a slight tingly sensation, but it should not hurt at all. In the photo below you can see that the stretcher is right to the end, I left it here for about 10 minutes so my ear could get used to the new size. (My ear was covered in Vaseline so it looks pretty gross) 

 

After the 10 minutes were up I then put Vaseline on the jewellery that I chose so as to aid it into the newly made hole and make it easier.

(The camera decided not to focus on my ear, sorry about that) The back of my jewellery unscrewed making it easier to get in. Once I've had stretched ears for a while I'll move onto a double flared gauge. But for now that would be too much for my newly stretched ears.

I plan on leaving these ones in for a month and then progressing to 2mm, I bought a new stretcher and jewellery in both black steel and plain steel. As you can see from the photo there is a small hole in the jewellery, you can actually see the light shining through it. I assume the bigger the jewellery the bigger the hole will be in it. (Let's play a game, every time you read the word 'jewellery' take a shot) I found a really good website to buy my jewellery from click here to visit it. It's called Ear Stretcher. It's really cheap but amazing quality. The steel stretchers I bought this time round actually came from them but were found on Amazon and not the shop it's self. I'm really pleased with how it looks and I can't wait to go a little bit bigger.

If you plan on doing this yourself as well, please be careful, disinfect well to ensure it's done safely and also make sure you don't push your ears too far. I have heard a lot of horror stories of people going too big too quickly and bad things happen. 

Anyway I hope this helped and if it didn't I hope you enjoyed reading any way.

I'll post again when I swap to 2mm. And also when I dye my hair.

Lots of posts to come!!!

Thanks so much for reading, I love you all.

Nadia xxx

I'm A Lobster.

Hello hello.

I've been writing a lot recently but I've realised that this blog was supposed to be about Fashion and Beauty, and it's turning out to be more about what's going on in my life and me ranting on about crap that's happened.. Is that a bad thing? I can't be sure. I'm sure you lovely lot would let me know if this gets a little too much and if it should go back to how it used to be.

Anyway, assuming you've read the title of this post, I am a lobster. Not a full blown red lobster with claws and beady eyes, no. But I am sunburnt to the point of becoming one. I've been in France for 3 days. 3 days in and I'm already burnt. THANKS A LOT DAD!! Why am I saying that? Well, I take after him, he burns ridiculously fast also. My mum on the other hand goes a delightful brown like a biscuit in the oven. I hate her for it. I'm either deathly white and look like I haven't slept in a good few years or I'm pink and itchy which eventually goes brown but only lasts for a few months. I think I'm just destined to be pale. So far my days have consisted of sunbathing, reading, sleeping and eating. That's it. What a life!!! I'm not complaining, it's bloody great. I've been able to catch up on some reading which was nice, it's a past time I've really missed being back in England (I never had space for books). I've been eating amazing meals, they always taste so much better when someone else cooks them for you. So that's the French life I'm living for the time being. Then I go back to the UK and the stress begins.

Changing the subject quickly, does any one else do this:

I often plan ahead in my brain box, not like some people who just like to know what's going on, no, I mean I really plan ahead. Like me and my best friend are planning a night out eventually and me, being the crazy person I am have planned it to within an inch of it's life. Like I've planned where we will go, what I will wear, who I'll see, what I'll say to those people I see, what time we leave said place and move onto another place. I've planned every single detail that could (should) happen. But it usually doesn't go how I want it to and then I get disappointed. It's really stupid and I know I should stop doing it, but I can't. I've tried but my brain just wants to process everything that could happen, all the scenarios that could occur. Maybe it's an illness. Maybe I'm mental. Oh God, I feel like I'm taking crazy pills!! (Name the film that's from, win a high five) If things could go how I planned them too, that'd be great. But it won't, I know it won't. Maybe a few things will pan out how I expected it too but it's very unlikely that the whole thing should piece together the way it has in my head. I hope some of you do this too so I feel less weird.

Right it's time for me to sleep, this was a short one. Sorry.

Thanks so much for reading. I love you all so very much. Hope to see you again next time.

Nadia xxx

Things Are Looking Up

Hello you beautiful lot.

I've been so busy recently that I've forgotten to write, although I don't think it was actually that long ago. Do you know what..? It might have been a while ago, I actually can't remember. To be perfectly honest I can't remember what I did a few days ago...

Anyway, onto this post. Today I thought I'd write about my exploits in Manchester. Let's start from the beginning, that's usually a good place to start. I'd had a final night out with my favourite people, getting merry on many cocktails, I'd had another tattoo done that day too (I'll talk about that in another post) things where going great. The next day, feeling a bit sick from the previous night, I woke to finish packing everything up, I finally took all of my posters down (which, if you've read my last post, was very sad for me) and all of my kitchen things were packed up ready. My sister and her boyfriend came to get me and my many boxes ready for my new life. As soon as they walked through the door I could see the horror on his face and him thinking "Bloody hell, is all this going to fit in my car???" The answer to that was yes. Eventually. It was like an adult version of Tetris. At this point they had barricaded me into the middle seat. They had literally built a wall of my things around me, I felt very unsafe. (See image below to see how squished I really was). It was funny for the first 20 minutes into the 2 hour car journey, after that my legs started feel numb.

This image does not depict how cramped I really was.

So, after 2 hours of being stuck in a hot car, surrounded by everything I owned, we arrived in Manchester. Once we got to their house it was time to unload. Never in my life have I been so greatful to walk around and stretch my legs. I could have ran a marathon, ok, slight exaggeration there, but you get the gist. Yeah so we unpacked everything and I made myself at home in the spare room (where I am currently writing this post)
I've been here for 3 weeks and lots has happened. I have finally found somewhere to live -Insert Applause and Cheering here- it's private halls and looks super fancy. I'm looking forward to meeting the 3 other people I'll be living with for the next year. It's all very exciting!! I've also made the decision to stretch my ears, not drastically but to 2mm just for a change to go with my newly acquired tattoos and soon to be freshly dyed hair, you'll have to wait and see what colour it's going to be. I feel as though I'm slowly killing my parents with shock as every time they see me something new is added or changed. Since I've returned to the UK (1 year) I have found myself with 2 new piercings, 2 new tattoos and 2 soon to be stretched piercings. I feel dreadfully sorry for them having to put up with my changes. I'm sure I'll make it up to them one day by being painfully boring and normal.

Today, as I write this, it is my dogs 10th birthday. Which is crazy to think that I was just 10 years old when we picked up this scared little puppy out of the back of a horse box. I hope there's many more years to come and I cannot wait to smush his furry little face. 

Being in Manchester is strange. I'll walk in the town center and realise that I won't bump into anyone I know, it's a scary thought. But me and one of my closest friends are planning on me coming back to Nottingham to stay with her for a few days and so we can resume our crazy nights out, which I'm so looking forward too. The great thing about this friend is that we can not talk for ages and then all of sudden have so much to tell each other and it's like we've never been away. To me that's what true friendship is, we've even decided to get matching tattoos eventually. We already have a few matching piercings. She's like a sister to me and it's actually funny because we are basically the same person, and every time we go out someone asks us if we are sisters!! I miss her face so much!! 

I've just realised that there are a lot of pictures in this post. Which is new as I haven't really done a post with pictures in for a long time. I'm not sure if I prefer with or without images. You'll have to let me know.

Anyway, back to the story. I'm going on as if everything has been great, unfortunately it has not. Some things have disappointed me and made me super upset, people have said things that shouldn't have been said. I'm being very cryptic, I'm sorry, I wanted to let you guys know that it's not always hunky dory with me but I won't do into detail. There's no point. My friends and family have helped me through it which is all I really needed.

I have 2 days left before I leave for France for a few weeks. I WILL GET BROWN!!!! That's what I keep screaming at myself. I currently look dead, which is not a good look when you're actually alive. I may have been shopping and I may have bought too many summer clothes.. Maybe... I'm just looking forward to real food and getting fat and brown and basically turning into a pig on a spit roast hahaha... Oh the imagery. Anyway, I think that's enough babbling for one post. I'll keep you updated on my stretching process and I'll probably post about my tattoos soon along with my new hair colour once it's done!! 

Thank you so much for reading, it really does mean a lot to know that so many of you read my posts. And it's strange to think that these posts that you read come from my brain box. Hummm. Anyway, yes. Thank you, thank you.

I love you all so very much.

I hope you'll all be back next time.

Nadia xxx

So Long And Thanks For All The Fish.

This post is about saying goodbye and how sucky it is!! 

Did you get the reference in the title? Name that film and win a hug. 

So yeah, goodbyes. They are the worst. I have 5.5 days left before I move to a new city and have to make new friends who I will then have to say goodbye to again. It's a vicious circle. I've already said goodbye to a few people, only a few more to go. I get the chance to have a final drink with a good friend on Wednesday which I am so excited for but also really sad about having to leave her, and I still need to say goodbye to my best friend which will be the hardest, although we did live in different countries for 8 years and we got through that. At least this way we're only a train ride away.

I've always hated saying goodbye to people, then again I don't think any one really enjoys doing it. I always cry (which as you all know happens a lot to me in my life) and then the snot flows, I'm so sorry for that image think about flowers or cats.... 

My room barely looks like my room any more, I have a few posters up because I feel as soon as they come down that's it, game over. My shelves are empty and my dressing table void of make-up and hair accessories. It all looks very meek. My floor however is a mess!! By God never have I seen such mayhem before. Suitcases and boxes and clothes everywhere!!!! Literally everywhere. I should probably clean that up. MEH, what's the point? I've cleaned everything, no dust now. The windows have been cleaned as best as I could, I'm only small so I have trouble reaching places. 

Changing the subject quickly, because it's been so hot outside recently my room has been a furnace!!! You know on snapchat when you take a picture you can change it to show the temperature, well, I did that and it came up with 30 degrees (I'd do that little circle thing that mean degrees but I can't find it on my keyboard) I felt like I was dying. Sleeping was a thing I longed for, I must have lost about 5 stone in sweat. Gross, sorry. Luckily it's raining now so it's gotten cooler. It feels less like an oven and more like a comfortable lodge house in winter. Not sure that's any better to be honest. 

Blimey, how did I get so off topic??? I've forgotten what I was saying and I'm too lazy to re read what I've written so I'll just go on about something else.

I'm doing a lot of writing lately. I think its to take my mind off of packing up and moving. But I'm not sure, maybe I should ask my brain, hold on... "Hey Brain, why are we writing so much lately? Is it to not think about really stressful stuff?" "Naaaaaah mate, I'm just bored and this seems to be the best thing to do" Huh well there you have it. Do I sound crazy? I feel like I might be. Maybe because I'm writing it and not saying it out loud it makes me less crazy.

New subjects. Let me see. Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream (It took me a good 3 minutes to find the & sign on my keyboard, I'm losing my touch!) is so delicious. My favourite flavour is Cookie Dough, not sure why I'm sharing that piece of information with you, I think I'm just running out of things to say and I'm too scared to end this and go back to reality where I have to pack more boxes or fold clothes or something and be and adult and I realllllllly don't want to have to do that because it makes me nervous and then I panic and then I can't sleep and then things get worse and OMG BREATHE!!! Hee Hee Hoo Hoo, In. Out. IN. OUT. OK I'm good. Just had a mental break down. Sorry.

I think it's time to leave this here, I don't want to waste your time by making you read this pile of poop. I'll come back in a few days with something to interesting for you to read. Hopefully.

OK, hope to see you all again next time.

Love Nadia xxx

Packing My Life Into Boxes.

It's been a while, I apologise.

Everything is changing at the moment, I'm packing everything I own into a few boxes and suitcases. It makes me realise that I don't actually own that much but more than I think I did. My walls are looking bare now I've taken my posters down, I'm debating whether or not to put them back up until the day I leave. I've kept all of my makeup out still, so that it feels like my bedroom. The house is super quite now that my housemates have moved out, the house feels huge and I feel alone... Which I am.

I have two weeks of being by myself, in this house. Passing by the girls bedrooms and seeing nothing in there makes me feel so emotional. I can't stop crying and I hate myself for it. I'm actually crying while writing this. How lame is that. Being on my own makes my brain think 200x faster and about the most stupidest of things, depressing things. That's why I try and avoid being alone. 

I still need to find somewhere to live in Manchester, leaving everything till last minute as per usual. Good one Nadia. At least college is over with so I can focus mainly on packing my life away and moving on to the next chapter. I'll be officially moved out of this house in two weeks. Two weeks!!! That's not long at all. How am I supposed to get anything done in that short amount of time!!!! See, all I'm doing is panicking and not going anywhere.

I've started packing my clothes away and I've already filled one suitcase, I have no idea where I'm going to put the rest of my stuff. The last time I did this I had the aid of a packing master (a.k.a my dad) and I can't seem to figure out how he managed it. I suppose I could sit on it to close it... I'm sure I'll figure it out, eventually. 

I'm so nervous about living in Manchester, it's such a big place and I get lost so easily. There I go again, panicking over stupid things. 

I'm flitting from subject to subject. I'm sorry, I'm nervous, annoyed, sad, confused. All of the above. My face is red and blotchy from having cried all day. I hate crying, no one looks good doing it, don't believe those Disney Princesses. It' always so snotty and gross looking, even the person who loves you the most in the whole world will be disgusted when you cry in front of them. Sorry to be so blunt about it.

I'd love to be able to go out and have a drink to take my mind off all of this, but alas there is no one to go out with. Unless I go alone, but I don't quite think that'll have the same effect as I need. 

Anyway, I feel as though I've rambled on enough, I'll let you all have an amazing Sunday where you gorge yourselves on Sunday Roast.

I love you all dearly, thanks for reading..

Hope to see you next time.

Nadia xxx

How I Got My Blonde And Purple Hair.

Hello you sexy lot,

I'm having trouble sleeping so I thought I'd write a blog post telling you all how I achieved my blonde and purple hair. 

So here is a photo of said hair in it's purple glory: 

Now in this photo my hair appears to be more purple than anything, which is true, it was for that particular day as it was my house mate's birthday and I wanted it extra purple.

Now in the next picture you'll see (excuse the weird posing, it's from instagram) that my hair is more blonde and the purple looks much more natural. 

You see, the good thing about this colour is that you can control how dark you want it to go. Because I have natural darkish hair I had to bleach my hair a few times in order to get it light enough for the blonde to take. Now before having this colour I had red hair... Which is a bitch (s'cuse my French) to get out. So anyway, my friend came over and bleached my hair for me, it's better to get it done by a hairdresser than to try and do it yourself. The bleach they use is stronger and there for will lift better. So yeah, she bleached my hair about 4 times leaving the ends unbleached. She then applied the purple to the bleached area and dyed the ends a caramel colour. It looked amazing but as my roots appeared it started to look patchy. So when I went home for Easter my mum (who is amazing at doing hair even though she's not a hairdresser) bleached my roots and applied a blonde all over, I think the colour I used was by Garnier and it was called Natural Blonde. It looked amazing as the ends of my hair were still caramel, which I loved. Then for the purple I buy the little pots of La Riche Directions in Lilac you can buy it  here. I'll wash my hair as normal and just before I use conditioner I apply a small amount of the colour to the pieces of hair I want to be purple and the rinse and condition. The colour lasts about 2 washes and then it looks a bit dull, so I like to top it up every time I wash my hair. I would suggest applying the colour to light hair as it wouldn't show up on dark. 

I love the colour my hair is at the moment, the only problem being my roots as they are so dark. I have to bleach them each time and it gets expensive and it's not that great for my hair. So I think when my roots get really bad and I start look trampy, then I'll probably dye my hair a light brown so that my roots don't show up as much.

I feel as though this hair colour has changed the way I look drastically, normally I would have dark hair. Having such light hair was a massive shock to me when I first had it done. But now I love it and I really don't want to change it.

Thanks for reading guys, I love you all dearly and I think that if you want to dye your hair a crazy colour, I say GO FOR IT!! You'll look fabulous.

Love Nadia xxx

Why I Hate Humans.

Those who have been reading my blog posts will probably be saying "Whaaat? This is the 3rd post in the last 2 weeks, what's going on???" I know it's a shock. I've been writing a lot lately to make myself feel better.

If you've read the title you'll know that at this moment and time I'm hating on the humans, I could quite easily live in a world where there are only animals for company. Animals don't let you down, animals won't make you cry (they might if you piss them off, but that doesn't count, ok?) Basically I prefer animals to humans. And yet I don't have any animals in my house, I'd love to get a cat, but, unfortunately there's no point. If I'm moving in September I might not even be able to take it with me. And it's not fair on the poor thing, so I'll refrain my crazy cat lady feelings and wait until I have a stable life style. However, there are lots and lots of humans around me, each one of them pissing me off in their own way and they don't even realise they're doing it. For instants: I'm casually walking down the road and hit a human traffic jam, they were walking soooooo slow. I actually wanted to scream!!! Or people using their mobiles and walking at the same time, then they walk into you, it's like, watch where you're going!!! I almost got run over by some douchebag in a van because he was too busy on his phone. What is wrong with people these days? Or is it just me? Maybe someone stuck an "Annoy Me" sign on my back and I haven't get realised. I think the only people who have yet to piss me off is my family and my best friend.

Being back in the UK has really hit me, I've just been so upset at the fact that I'm on my own. It's quite boring. I actually cleaned my whole room (very rare for me) because I was feeling so down. Recently I've been so emotional, I cry at everything!! Being a girl is greaaaat, said no one ever.I have chocolate and popcorn, so I've got that going for me, which is nice. But all I really want right now is a hug. Eh, I sound so pathetic. I'm sorry for making you all read this.

Tomorrow at college we're doing bald caps... Yes I will find out if I look good bald or not. Just thought you might like to know that, not sure why to be honest.

Anyway, I'll leave y'all be, sorry if I've dampened your evening/morning with my boring sad life.

I love you all sooo much, thank you for reading. I'm gonna go soppy, but knowing that you guys read what I write really makes me feel better because I know that people are getting joy out of my writing. Now I know the title of this post says I hate humans, but I don't hate you. Just putting that out there.

Rant over.

Love Nadia xxx

Why I Pierced My Nose... Twice.

So recently I got a comment on one of my posts asking me to talk about my nose piercings, so that's just what I'm going to do.

I first wanted my nose pierced when I was 14 years old. I googled pictures of girls with cute little studs in their noses, I pleaded with my parents to let me have it done and that I'd only ever have a small diamond in my nose if only they would pay for me to get it done. It worked.

 I went to Manchester with my parents and we went into a piercings parlour. The guy refused to pierce me because I had to be 16 in order to get it done, even with parental supervision. I was really upset because I had my heart set on having it done that day. But that didn't faze me. For 2 years I kept trying but no one would do it, so when I hit my 16th birthday I pleaded with my dad to take me and get it done. He agreed and we went to this small jewellery shop not far from where I lived, I paid £20 to have it done, the woman pierced it with a gun (they're not actually allowed to do that, but I hadn't done enough research) she told me it was going to sting a little. Before this the only piercings I gotten done were my ears and I had those done when I was little so I didn't really remember it much. Anyway, the lady pushed down on the gun and by god did it make my eyes water. They were absolutely streaming, I cursed under my breath. The stud she had put in my nose was actually an earring, and it was super sharp on the inside. Every time I went to scratch of blow my nose I'd give myself an awful nose bleed. But the pain subsided about 2 minutes after having it done, I'd completely forgotten it was there until I accidentally knocked it with my hand. 4 years later and I still have problems with it, I can only wear silver studs in it. I tried with a silver hoop but it made it sore and irritated and it just wasn't worth the pain. I don't regret having that done, its made me who I am. After having it done I couldn't even remember what I looked like without it. now I have a small silver studded ball in it and as long as I don't touch it, it doesn't hurt.

Now about 2 months ago I decided I would get my other nostril pierced so I could have a hoop in. My original idea was to pierce it and then let my dodgy one heal up. But I've seen what they look like healed up and to me it just wasn't worth it. So again, I researched more into having it pierced with a hoop and where to have it done. I went to the same place I had had my navel pierced when I was 17. The girl there recognised me and we had a nice chat, she was lovely. I asked her if she could line it up with the other one so it didn't look weird. I had it pierced with an 9" black metal hoop, it was huge, I only have a little nose. They gave me a pack of salt and some tea tree oil to help it heal. After a month it was perfect, again it only hurt a little bit to start with and piercing it made my eyes water again, but because I'd been through it once before it wasn't as bad. Last month I bought a 7" hoop, still in black because I thought it contrasted really well with the silver on the other side. I took it back to the piercing place and asked them to change it for me. It stung really bad when she pulled it out but the pain was over within a few seconds. I'm much happier with this smaller hoop and I love the fact it looks different.

None of my piercings have ever bled, my second nose piercing bled a little bit, but the first didn't at all. I think it depends on the person getting it done. 

If you want to get a piercing, all I would say to you is to do the research. Don't make the same mistake I did with my first piercing because it hurts!! Make sure you look at lots of pictures and maybe give yourself a year to think about whether or not you're certain. Don't waste your money by making a quick decision. Yes, piercings can be taken out but they leave scars in their place, which don't look as good. So please make sure you have it done safely and if you're under aged please make sure there is an adult with you.

Thanks so much for reading.

Love Nadia xxx

What's Going On?

Hullo, Hullo.

So as you all know I'm currently in France until Thursday where I've been eating so much, sleeping so much and just having a bloody good time. I'm currently eating Christian Dior ice-cream (Carte D'Or, my dad got it wrong. Bless him) and I have a feeling I'm going to be feeling very sick once I'm done. So back to the point, in France there's an abundance of red beetles. They are so gross, I was sitting watching some Parks And Recreation and there I saw about 10 of them. I freaked out!! I have never been so stressed out over beetles before in my life! Writing this I hope I've used the correct form of beetle and it's not beatle, no I think I'm right. 

As I told you in my last post I had dyed my hair again, well, I maybe, kinda, dyed it again.. But this time blonder. I just need to add in the purple again but I really can't be bothered right now as I won't be seeing anyone until I get back to the UK. Talking of getting back on British soil, lots and lots of work awaits me. WOOHOO. I'm so darn excited to get that done (holds up sarcasm sign) but hey ho, it's got to be done. I have work pouring out of my ears, kind of like jam. Woah, what an image. I'm so sorry for that.

I feel as though I've been doing a lot of blog posts updating you on what's going on, which normally isn't what this blog is supposed to be about. I'm sure you don't mind?

I recently had false nails put on so that my natural nails would grow without me messing with them, I know what a change of subject, I took my false nails off about a week ago and to my surprise my natural nails are now beautiful. I've never had such long nails before. It was so difficult to type with the false ones on, I was forever touching too many keys, same with texting. It took me about 20 minutes to write a normal length text. And cooking, my god, don't get me started on cooking. Normally it would take me about 2 minutes to peel and cut up and onion, with false nails on it took me about half and hour. I could not get the hang of it and by the time I did get the hang of it they bloody fell off. Sods law!

Back to France, I've been sunbathing for a few days now, I'm burnt. Only ever so slightly but still. And when the sun comes out my freckles come out too, which makes my face look 10x browner than my body. My mum teases me and tells me it looks like I have a gravy moustache. Thanks mum. I don't mind my freckles, they're just annoying. When it comes to putting foundation on, it's either cake the foundation on and cover them up or barely put any on so that it doesn't cover them up at all. I can't win because if I put on just the right amount it looks like my freckles are drawn on. I know a lot of people are actually doing that, but mine don't look good when I do it haha.

Anyway, there's things on tv I'd like to watch so I'm going to leave this post here, I hope you don't mind. Thanks all for reading.

I love you all very muchly.

Love Nadia xxx

The Sky's The Limit

I’m writing todays post about 15,000 feet in the air (that’s an approximation, don’t hold me to that). Anyway, I’m currently on the plane to France where I will get to see my parents and pets again, ok who am I kidding, I’m just looking forward to getting free food and proper meals made for me on the daily. So, the point of todays post isn’t to go on about plane rides and the Easter holidays, it’s actually about dreams and aspirations. I will ramble on a bit in this post so if you don’t like that sort of thing, now would be the time to click off this page and go back to watching cat videos on Youtube.

So in my last post you will know that I got into The Manchester College to further my studies in Makeup (that is if you read it, if you haven’t click here), now you may be thinking, what’s that got to do with the sky being the limit, well friends this was and still is my dream which I will be living in September. What I’m trying to say is, I persevered in getting where I want to be. If you want something you should do your hardest to go get that thing, if you want to learn how to drive, go for it, don’t be scared!!! If you want to ask someone to marry you, do it, take the opportunity by the balls and accomplish your dream. It can be about small things too, you want to buy a new pair of shoes, you should definitely buy them, unless you’re a student like me and if buying them means not eating for a month, you should probably reconsider. But what I’m trying to get across right now is that these things in life that you want more than anything aren’t going to fall into your lap. You’re going to have to get off your bum and get them, you’re going to have to conquer the dragon keeping you from it (a.k.a fear) and run as fast as you can so you don’t get eaten… Sorry I’m going into fantasy mode where was I? Oh yeah, basically you need to over come your fears and just do it, as nike would say, if you want a tattoo or piercing but you’re worried what people will think, screw those people. It’s your face/body, you do what you want. If this thing makes you happy then there should be no question about it because for me, happiness is the greatest thing you can get from life, that and bacon! Going back to the piercings, about a month ago I got my nose pierced again, so now I have two nose piercings either nostril, one side has a hoop the other a stud, ok not that strange, I also dyed my hair purple, blonde, white and brown. Now for me this is what makes me the happiest, looking different, standing out from the crowd. Back to the point, the point is, I was walking down the street minding my own business when a lady, no more than 50 (and that’s being generous), walked past me, looked me up and down and then sucked her teeth at me, the sound was like a weird hissing noise. The bloody cheek of it, I wasn’t doing anything out of the ordinary, but it was probably because I looked different from everyone else. But I won’t take out my piercings and dye my hair a normal colour just to please some old bag who needed to get out of the 18^th century. Let’s get off that topic now, it’s getting depressing.

So yeah, I’m on this plane, I’ve been placed in a seat next to two Liverpudlians (I have no idea how that’s spelt but they’re from Liverpool) and they must be the jolliest people I’ve ever met. Never has a flight gone quicker. This is a good flight, even though I was moved 2 times, I started off with a window seat, I was so happy, then I was put next to seriously grumpy people, I was too scared to even move in case they sued me for something stupid (no that was not an exaggeration) and now I’m here, having a bloody good laugh. Seen as there’s no internet 35,000 feet in the air (yes, the number has gone up) I’m writing this on Microsoft word.

I’m going to leave this post here now. Thanks for reading and I’ll see you on the other side. Hope to see you in the next post. 

Nadia xxx

I'm way to tired to think of a title for this post. Sorry. (You should read it anyway)

Wow, it's been so long since I've written anything, I'm so sorry for that. It' just everything has been so hectic at the moment and I haven't had any time to think. Let me explain to you what I've been up to.

So, I went to Manchester in February for an interview at a media makeup school... I got in. I know I'm saying this very casual, I honestly don't think it's sank in yet. I probably won't believe it until I move into my new accommodation and start my first day. All in good time, it's going quick enough without saying things like that. So yeah, that was very exciting and the path to my future continues to pave it'self. Wow, that was poetic. Anyway, I'm going off topic. After that not much happened, until we started getting lots of people asking us to do makeup for them. 

My friend who is studying photography asked me if I could do some face painting for him so he could take some pictures and in return he would film it and give me the pictures he took. I agreed and this is the result of our work, click here to watch the video. It took over 2 hours to complete the look. I'll add a photo here; 

I'll leave the link to my friends facebook page here. There you will find loads of amazing pictures. (obviously) But to all seriousness, he's helped me and my college out loads.

Back to the story, then we were invited to take part in Nottingham's 48 hours of fashion which was part of fashion week. It was so exciting, for the first day I had my nails done (which made me feel super fancy) and then I'm pretty sure I painted over 20 small human faces and then airbrushed a beautiful girl's face. It was so much fun, the public got to have a full makeover, hair, nails, makeup and then got to have a professional photo shoot.
For the second day of the 48 hours of fashion, I was roped into being a model as one of the fashion models hadn't turned up. I had already done the makeup for one of the other fashion students in a sort of 18th century style, she looked amazing. I then went on to do my own makeup and my friends did my hair for me. here's a picture of that; Guess which one's me hahah.

We looked wicked!!!!! The public got to have their photo taken with us, it was weird being the other side of the camera, even though I do Youtube videos. I've never really had my photo taken in a professional kind of way.
After the two days were over I was absolutely knackered, but I only had one day of rest because the day after that we had to go to the Albert Hall in Nottingham to do the makeup for a Bollywood inspired fashion show, it was called Kangna. We made up at least 6 girls each and some of the other makeup artists had to make over the boys aswell. But by the end of it they look bloody fantastic. They had their outfits on and their hair done, they looked stunning. This is one of the girls I did.

This finished at around 7 pm, by this time I was ready to drop!!! Since then I've had a fair amount of people asking me to do their makeup, on the 28th of March I'll be partaking in another fashion show. But hey, I'm not complaining, it's getting me prepared for when the hard stuff comes in later life, when I'm doing the makeup for some movie (which will obviously be up for an Oscar) and has huge celebs participating. I can't wait.

Other then that the other stuff I have to tell you is far less exciting after reading all that I've just written... I've recently had my hair dyed, purple and brown. And had my nose pierced again, but on the other side. I'm getting weirder. Just warning you, you heard it here first!!! 

OH, I almost forgot, I'm on instagram now, yay I'm becoming mainstream. you should all follow me and see how much crap I post. Anyway, it's currently 2.13 am and I'm super tired from doing nothing today. Although I did cook some healthy food, which is weird because that never happens.... Hopefully next time it won't be as long as it was this time round.

I love you all very muchly, thanks for reading and I hope you'll be here for the next one.
See you next time
Love Nadia xx

A day in the life of a crazy person.

Hello earthlings, lately I've been feeling a little off. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's just life in general. I can't explain to you why this is happening, it just is. Wow, that sounded like the beginning of a book, sorry. Anyway, yes, so recently I've felt like there's this hole in me (don't be rude) and I just can't seem to fill it. What does that mean?? Does it mean I'm not for filling my role as a human? I don't know and it's rather worrying. OK, maybe not life threatening but none the less, it's making me question myself. Will this hole fill it'self in when I go to University? Will it disappear when I get a good job? All these questions that can't be answered, unless you're a psychic then please, feel free to contact me and tell me what on earth is going on.

I have so much to do and yet I can't seem to force myself to do it. Is that just laziness? Sounds like laziness, oh lordy I just can't seem to think straight. Am I rambling? I feel like I am.... I'm so very sorry for those of you who have come here to learn about things, or to have a laugh. I may or may not have put a dampener on your day as well as my own.

Changing topic, I've been watching a lot of "Face Off", no not the film with John Travolta, the American tv show. I've become quite obsessed with it and the more I watch it, the more I feel crap about my own work. Which is not a good thing to think, especially when they've been doing it for years and years and I've only been doing for half a year. Everything just seems so much better then what I can do. It's a silly way to think really but oh well I am queen of the sillys.

On the plus side, I got an interview at Manchester for February. YEAAAAAHHHHH! Let's be honest though, I'm absolutely bricking it. What if all the other interviewees are better then me? What is their portfolios are better than mine? ARGHGHGH SHUT UP BRAIN! That's what I keep shouting at myself, thus confirming to those around me that I am slightly crazy. I know that when I get there, I'll realise that I have great skills and one day I'll be queen of the makeup industry. Ok, maybe not that far, but I can dream. Right? All I know is that if I work hard enough (and this applies to everyone) I can get where I want to be, maybe I'll want to work on Hollywood movies doing makeup for Chris Evans............. Sorry I went off into my own little dream land *Cough Cough* anyway back to what we were saying. Wait what was I saying? Eh I don't know. All I do know is one day I'll make it. And all my dreams will come true eventually. OK maybe not the bit about Chris Evans, but you know what I mean.

I feel like this post has gone on for long enough and that I'm wasting your time. Oh well, I'm venting leave me alone.

What else to talk about??? OH, I got a new phone. I'm so happy because before I had a phone that was none existent. No seriously, I went into a phone shop and asked them to look up how much my phone was worth and my phone didn't even appear on the search list... I was sold a none existent phone!! But now I have a shiny new one and all is well in the world. but it's HUGE, I only have a little head and little hands, I'm like a T-Rex. It's like a tablet for me. Like a baby holding a normal sized phone. Maybe that's a slight exaggeration, but not by much.

I'm also on instagram so if you want to follow me you can do: http://instagram.com/nadiapulfrey/ Feel free. Thanks to my shiny new tablet/phone I can stalk people and they can stalk me back.

I'm running out of things to say, maybe that's a sign I should let you all go back to your lives. Yeah I think I'll do that. Thanks very much for reading my life story and putting up with the rambling and silly behaviour. Much love to you all. See you all again in the next post.

Love Nadia xxx

Glitter eyes.

Hello you beautiful bunch, today I feel like showing you how I achieved the look that you see above. This is without the added eyelashes, that picture will be at the end of this post.

To start off with I primed my eyes and then went in with the electric palette from Urban Decay, (I can't remember the names of the colours so I'll just say the colour.. Sorry) So first off I took the silver and put that in the corner of my eyes, then taking the electric blue (not the dark blue) and patting that all over the lid then with the purple (not the pinky purple but the purple purple, if that made any sense haha) and putting that in my crease and almost to my eyebrow. Then with the pinky purple I mentioned earlier blending that in with the purple purple up to the brow. 

Now for the glitter, using Too Faced glitter glue, I applied that all over the blue area and then used loose blue glitter and patted that on top of the blue eye shadow I applied earlier. 

For under the eyes use the same colours as before and line the lash line with them. You can do it in any order but I decided to join the silver with the silver under my eye and so on and so forth. Now for the finished look with the eyelashes. 

It's slightly darker than the other picture, that's because this picture is for a youtube video I have done. As you can see I applied eye liner to my top lash line and created a wing all the way to the purple. Then taking my lashes (these ones are Demi Wispies from Ardelle, not sure if that's how it's spelt, I'm sure someone will tell me)

And there you go, A really cute and simple splash of colour for your eyes if you're feeling adventurous. Pair this with bold eyebrows and a nude lip and you'll look fabulous.

I hope you enjoyed reading this post, I'll see you all again next time.
Love Nadia xxx