Hello earthlings, lately I've been feeling a little off. Maybe it's the weather, maybe it's just life in general. I can't explain to you why this is happening, it just is. Wow, that sounded like the beginning of a book, sorry. Anyway, yes, so recently I've felt like there's this hole in me (don't be rude) and I just can't seem to fill it. What does that mean?? Does it mean I'm not for filling my role as a human? I don't know and it's rather worrying. OK, maybe not life threatening but none the less, it's making me question myself. Will this hole fill it'self in when I go to University? Will it disappear when I get a good job? All these questions that can't be answered, unless you're a psychic then please, feel free to contact me and tell me what on earth is going on.
I have so much to do and yet I can't seem to force myself to do it. Is that just laziness? Sounds like laziness, oh lordy I just can't seem to think straight. Am I rambling? I feel like I am.... I'm so very sorry for those of you who have come here to learn about things, or to have a laugh. I may or may not have put a dampener on your day as well as my own.
Changing topic, I've been watching a lot of "Face Off", no not the film with John Travolta, the American tv show. I've become quite obsessed with it and the more I watch it, the more I feel crap about my own work. Which is not a good thing to think, especially when they've been doing it for years and years and I've only been doing for half a year. Everything just seems so much better then what I can do. It's a silly way to think really but oh well I am queen of the sillys.
On the plus side, I got an interview at Manchester for February. YEAAAAAHHHHH! Let's be honest though, I'm absolutely bricking it. What if all the other interviewees are better then me? What is their portfolios are better than mine? ARGHGHGH SHUT UP BRAIN! That's what I keep shouting at myself, thus confirming to those around me that I am slightly crazy. I know that when I get there, I'll realise that I have great skills and one day I'll be queen of the makeup industry. Ok, maybe not that far, but I can dream. Right? All I know is that if I work hard enough (and this applies to everyone) I can get where I want to be, maybe I'll want to work on Hollywood movies doing makeup for Chris Evans............. Sorry I went off into my own little dream land *Cough Cough* anyway back to what we were saying. Wait what was I saying? Eh I don't know. All I do know is one day I'll make it. And all my dreams will come true eventually. OK maybe not the bit about Chris Evans, but you know what I mean.
I feel like this post has gone on for long enough and that I'm wasting your time. Oh well, I'm venting leave me alone.
What else to talk about??? OH, I got a new phone. I'm so happy because before I had a phone that was none existent. No seriously, I went into a phone shop and asked them to look up how much my phone was worth and my phone didn't even appear on the search list... I was sold a none existent phone!! But now I have a shiny new one and all is well in the world. but it's HUGE, I only have a little head and little hands, I'm like a T-Rex. It's like a tablet for me. Like a baby holding a normal sized phone. Maybe that's a slight exaggeration, but not by much.
I'm also on instagram so if you want to follow me you can do: http://instagram.com/nadiapulfrey/ Feel free. Thanks to my shiny new tablet/phone I can stalk people and they can stalk me back.
I'm running out of things to say, maybe that's a sign I should let you all go back to your lives. Yeah I think I'll do that. Thanks very much for reading my life story and putting up with the rambling and silly behaviour. Much love to you all. See you all again in the next post.
Love Nadia xxx
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