Looking Like A Zombie, Feeling Like A Goddess

Good 'morrow fellow people.

You know when you get that feeling where you just can't be bothered to do your hair or makeup? Loads of girls are slowly nodding their heads to this one, a few guys as well I'm sure.
Well this is a reoccurring issue with me, I'm a fully qualified makeup artist (beauty) and am studying to be a sfx makeup artist, yet I cannot for the life of me, be bothered everyday to slap all sorts of expensive (or cheap) products onto my skin. I'll only just be bothered to roll my sleepy arse out of bed, I've only literally rolled out of bed onto the floor a few times, throw some clothes on that are clean-ish and get myself out of the flat as quick as possible! Now when I say I throw clothes on, I mean I do get dressed properly, I don't mean I have a sock on my hand and my trousers are on backwards. Sometimes I forget to put matching socks on but that's another story (who can be bothered to match socks anyway?)

Once I'm outside all sorts of mayhem happens. Children stare at your zombie like state, their parents are judging you and hoping you don't go near their offspring. They shouldn't be worried because I hate children and I would rather eat light bulbs than be within 2 cm of a sprog. But they don't know that, to them you are the weird lady slouching down the street wearing 9 layers of clothing in order to keep warm (change this to fit the season, eg: summer time, 1 layer of clothing etc...) you think I'm exaggerating but 9 layers is sufficient for someone who, I'm pretty certain of, has no blood. I'm always cold and I will always be cold no matter the weather. The 9 layers would consist of, a pair of tights and jeans, a small crop top underneath a longer top, underneath a long sleeved top, underneath another long sleeved top, which would be underneath a jumper and then on top of that I would usually have a hoodie and probably 2 scarfs and a big coat. I am not joking... Ok maybe I am a little bit, but when I see people going into the cold dark world in just a bomber jacket and little shoes I think to myself "HOW? How are you not dead? How have you survived these treacherous winds in such little clothing???" Fair do's to the people who can do that, well done!! It's just not for me.

When I make an effort I look older than I am, which is probably the same for most people. Without I look like a small child. A small boy child actually! I once got ID'd to get into Jurassic World because I was in tracky bottoms (sweat pants) and a hoodie with no makeup. The film was a 12. I kid you not. At what point does this become less offensive? At what point do I take it as a compliment that I actually look like a child? When I'm 80 and I look like a 40 year old? If I look 40 when I'm 80 I'll be very impressed and I'll probably be on the news or on those pop ups on websites that say "Plastic Surgeons Hate Her!!" That would be fun. I have three looks, I either look like a homeless person, a slut or a boy. There is no in between. I either have my stripper shoes on with a mini skirt and a crop top or skinny jeans, dr martens and a shirt. Sometimes I even end up looking like a lesbian. Fun times.

Sometimes it's nice to make an effort and do your face/hair/body all pretty and girly, when I try, I TRY! I go for it. I have my foundation and contour on, my highlighter could blind passersby, I like to believe it could one day knock someone off their bike, my eyeliner is sharp enough to cut that one bitch who is always mean to you and slags you off behind your back, ugh what a cow.. Sorry, sorry, I'm slowly slipping into hatred, I'll climb out of that now. Anyway, back to the subject at hand, my lipstick is always fabulous and my eyebrows are, as the kids call it, on fleek. So yeah, when I try I go for it and I nail it. Yeah I have the advantage of being a makeup artist but so what? There are people in the world who aren't makeup artists yet they 'slay' on a daily basis.

Just because you go out looking like a zombie doesn't mean you can't feel like a Goddess, Yeah I said it! I used the title of this post in the actual writing!! HA, go me.
I enjoy walking around and scaring the daylight out of someone with my under eye bags that could quite easily carry your shopping home for you (and do it in one trip). It's also fun to have a full face of makeup on and then accidentally fall asleep on a white surface. If you have done this, you'll understand why it's fun. Now, say you face plant this white surface and you don't move for the whole 6-8 hours of sleep you get, as you wake up from this luxurious nap you've had, you lift your face up to discover the contents of said face is now on your white surface. Now I don't mean just small splodge of eyeliner or something, OH NO, I mean like this:

Now, you know what I mean. It's bad. Moral of the story, always take your makeup off before you go to sleep.

Thanks for reading,
Love Nadia xxx

Broken Eggs And Why You Should Never Trust People.

Hello humans.

So as you can tell from the title of this post, eggs have been broken and milk has been spilt. Yet a tear was not shed. Someone swapped one of my eggs for a broken one.. Who does that??? At what point in your life do you think, "Hmmm, that persons eggs are so much better than my own. I know, lets swap one and see if they notice." I'm stumped... Why??? Surely this person didn't know that when I go to Aldi to purchase my eggs I do that little thing where you open the box and examine the eggs to make sure you don't buy any broken ones. You know, you judge each individual egg and if even one of them doesn't pass the test you swap the box, making the old box feel unloved. Pretty sure that was the idea behind Sausage Party. Anyway, I digress. Somethings are best left alone. 

Moving to University you realise that you can't trust the people you live with, they will do anything they can to eat/drink your stuff without you noticing. They will cut THE tiniest slither of your cheese just to taste it and have the satisfaction of knowing they got away with it. Before you know it all of the cheese is gone and the original owner of said cheese only had a small cheese toastie with it, yet it's gone. How is this possible? Is there a mouse in the house? A rat in the flat? No but there are snakes!!! They WILL lie to you, they will swear down that they had nothing to do with the disappearing cheese. You've just bought milk, you think "this should last me a while, I only use it for tea. I'll only get a small one." HA! How naive of you. While you're in class or have decided to go out for the day with friends, the snakes will drink some of said milk. But only if it's already opened. If it's not open, the milk is safe. But that is no way to live! You have to open that milk eventually, you're dying for a cuppa but you know that as soon as you pull that white cap off the top of the milk, the snakes will smell it. The only thing you can do at this point is to write your name on it. Yes, that will stop them! 

Do NOT get me started on the bathroom. Okay, I'll tell you. 

You buy your favourite shower gel/shampoo/conditioner/body scrub/etc... You have your little corner of the bath where you keep the things you decided to spend money on and you think it will be safe. You are wrong! So very wrong. Now if you live with girls you're usually ok as they too have bought their favourite things too. But if you live with a guy (heaven forbid) your stuff with never be safe. He may have his little corner with one little bottle of "We Do Everything, Body, Hair and Face" but he will not be satisfied with smelling like a man! Oh no, he will wait until he thinks no one will notice and slowly use up all of your special, organic shampoo that gives you the same volume as turbo wind. Or he'll lather his body up with your body scrub you saved up for which smells like the rain forest and makes you as soft as a babies bottom (however soft that may be). You'll go to use your stuff and they'll be a little less full, but you think nothing of it because a guy wouldn't possibly want to smell like a girl!?? Would he? SNAKE. Living with a guy is tough, they like to pee in the shower, if you own anything that falls off the side of the bath into the pool below you may as well just throw it out right away, and then take 1000 showers afterwards to cleanse your body and soul. But don't worry, your razors will be safe.......

The best place to keep all of the things that are sacred to you is in your bedroom. This is your sanctuary and no one will touch them unless you invite them to. But that's weird so don't do that. 

Unless they really like you and you really like them and they're like a sibling to you, then it's totally acceptable and you should take full advantage of having at least one flatmate who isn't a snake. You'll cherish the moments you spend together because eventually you will all move out and probably never speak to any of them again. You'll be happy for the most part that you never have to endure the horrid singing of one of the snakes at four in the morning or that one flatmate who likes a few drinks and decides to come home in his drunken state and walk into EVERY wall in the house, occasionally hitting a few of the doors on the way to his room which is at the other side of the flat. Or never having to smell the wretched smell coming from the kitchen as someone has tried to do some home cooking instead of buying their usual Sainsburys basics microwave curry. 

But once you're out of that horrible flat where nothing works and the internet is shit, you'll probably be sad that you can no longer see that one flatmate you really liked and actually bonded with over swiping left to boys on Tinder. She was there for you when you went through those awkward breakups and those poorly moments. She looked after you no matter how much work she had to do and YOU will miss her. But don't worry, if she moves into a house not far from yours, there's always a possibility of sleepovers. 

One day you'll look back at your time in halls and realise you lived in a Zoo! Yeah there was BBQ sauce on the walls, yeah the floor never got hoovered because the hoover broke that one time you lent it to someone on another floor, toilet paper was a rarity because people insisted it wasn't their turn to buy it, and the bath was probably never cleaned. But all of that is ok when you're 20. 

Thanks, for reading and thanks to Bethany Simmons for thinking of the title to this page.

Love Nadia xxx

And Then She Sewed The Models Face!

Good morrow!

Things have gotten better since the last depressing post (I'm so sorry for that!!), fun things have happened!!!

I went to the Neill Gorton Prosthetics Show in Birmingham with uni. Getting up at 6am was not very fun but I can't really complain because I got to nap on the very uncomfortable coach. 

We got there at around 9am which was perfect as we were just in time for the first demo of the day. We all sat in this giant lecture room, cameras and microphones were placed at the front and on that stage was Neill Gorton himself accompanied by Rebecca Butterworth!! WTF!!! Ok, I was fan girling slightly at this point.Now if you don't know who Neill Gorton is, let me educate you: He is the creator of Millennium FX, one of the biggest companies ever. He's worked on loads of films such as Saving Private Ryan, Thor, Frankenstein, The wolf Man and also One Direction: This Is Us (Yes this is true!!) (he did loads more but I'm not naming them all, are you crazy??) he's also worked on loads of tv shows too: Ant and Dec's Saturday Night Takeaway, Doctor Who, Torchwood and LOAAAADS more, he's also done the makeup for a Miss Lady Gaga, no idea who she is.. (LOL). Rebecca Butterworth is really well known in the fashion industry as she does all of the makeup for the catwalk. She knows whats in trend a year from now... It's like she can see in to the future or something?? Anyway, I sat in the perfect spot, I had a great view and waited for it to begin. Now, from the title of this post you may be wondering, the frick frack?? Yes, Rebecca sewed up the models face! Now don't be alarmed because Neill applied some prosthetic transfers that looked like bumps of skin to the models face, so in theory she wasn't actually sewing up the models real skin, I just thought I'd freak you all out and it helps for clickbait too, hehe. 

Don't mind me, just casually sewing a face.

As you can see from the photo above, she literally sewed up the face. It was weird to watch but also oddly satisfying to see. She add beads to it and turned it into a beauty look.

Once the talk and demo was over I plucked up the courage to go and talk to Mr Gorton... I managed to grab a selfie with him too!! (Inner screaming) 

There he is. The man himself. I was that excited to meet him I forgot there were really bright lights behind us making the photo a bit shit. BUT OMG I'M STANDING NEXT TO NEILL FRICKING GORTON!! Ok, annnnnd relax...

When all the excitement was over I went into the Monster Making room, yes that was the actual name of the room, cool isn't it? There were loads of masks and stuff placed around the room, with the name of the film or tv show they were taken from. It was weird seeing face casts of famous people with the masks that they actually wore!! Deadpools mask was there!!! They also had prosthetic pieces from Red Dwarf there (ask your dad about that one) and a giant beaver head from one of the old B&Q adverts!! 

Once we'd finished looking at the cool masks we sat down at the front of one of the other demonstrations and then Stuart Bray came on, again let me educate you on who Stuart Bray is: He worked on Shaun of the Dead, Stardust and The Mummy Returns. He has also done the makeup for Game of Thrones!!!! YES!! He's also helped Greg Nicotero on The Walking Dead... Anyway back to it, he came on and gave a presentation on some wrinkled skin he did for a movie, it was gross but I loved it!! Once he was done I went to go and talk to him, by this point I had my courage up and felt like I could go and talk to anyone!! He gave me some helpful tips and tricks about making prosthetic pieces and flat moulds and then I asked him for a photo, he asked me whether or not I would like a beaver head in the background "even though it has nothing to do with my work" he said.

There he is, Mr Stuart Bray. Unfortunately you can't see the giant beaver behind us! But by God was I a happy camper after this. I said goodbye to him and wandered back to my seat where I sat grinning for about half an hour. Then we had some people come talk to us about the monsters on Doctor Who which is cool as I used to watch it a lot (When Matt Smith was the doctor) and they talked about how they made the costumes and how hard it was to walk in them, they talked about the Slitheen, not sure if you remember those horrible creatures but turns out there were people walking around in those costumes and they had to have the arms glued on so once they were in there they couldn't actually take them off until lunch time!

Then they talked about the Angles, you know the ones where you can't blink or they come get you... Turns out they are real actresses painted to look like marble status, my mind was blown as I had always thought they were real statues. 

After that we did some shopping. I was in heaven!! There was so much fake blood, it was fabulous. I bought some to try and I still haven't opened it even though I'm really excited to see what it looks like. I bought one that is the exact same colour and texture of our blood when you first cut yourself!! How cool is that? 

As I was waiting for my friends to finish shopping I see a guy with blue hair and a soul patch walk past me. I stop. Glued to the spot. It can't be?? OMG!!! It's Charlie Short, a.k.a Pinkstylist from Youtube. Now hold on a minute, you may be thinking I'm over reacting slightly but no I'm not. I've been watching this guy on Youtube for years!! He taught me so much, he taught me how to do drag makeup and cool body painting. My heart was beating so quickly as I made my way to him, I tapped him on the shoulder and smiled my biggest smile at him.. It was hard to get my words out, I was star struck. I told him how much I loved his videos and if I could get a photo with him. He said yes and he was so lovely!! He came across as really genuine. I got a hug from him too!!

After saying goodbye to him my heart was still beating incredibly fast. I couldn't stop smiling!!!!  I felt like I had acted like a crazy person but he seemed ok with it, I posted this picture to instagram and tagged him in it, he had seen it and taken it and put it in a collage of people he had met that day!!!!! AHHHHHHH!!!!

Ok breathe, so yeah. After that we went back in to the giant lecture room and watched Neill Gorton and Rob Mayor do a full face of prosthetics!! It was cool how they made young girls look like old ladies.

Once it was all over it was time to go back to the uncomfortable coach, I tried to nap again but my body was having none of it. That's about it. The way back wasn't really that interesting. It was dark outside so I couldn't even glance at the landscape.

TADA!!! That's how my Saturday went.

Hope you enjoyed reading, I'll see you around.

Nadia xxx

Jinx

Hello,

Some of you may have noticed that I deleted my last post, I won't go in to detail but some stuff happened and I felt like I needed to erase everything to do with said issue from my life. Sorry for messing you all about, but I'm back now ready to write again.

I'm not going to lie to you, things have been shit. And I don't mean "ugh, today was a bad day" sort of shit, I mean the "I can't sleep or eat" kind of shit. I spent a few weeks suffering from insomnia and eating only toast. That's what my body does when shit goes down... You know how some people eat their feelings (take Bridget Jones for example, she eats ice cream and cries to herself) I can't do that. I starve myself of everything that I love, why I hear you ask, I don't know why. I guess it's my bodies way of dealing with rejection. This is turning out to be half rant half depression. I'm sorry... 

I know that everything was going so well in my last post, I knew it was too good to be true and I'm pretty sure I jinxed my life. But it's ok, I'm used to these set backs. Things will pick up again, the only problem is I'm always scared when things go too well, they usually come crashing down after a few months, leaving me battered and hurt wondering what the hell happened to the happy times. Sometimes it can go from "OMG I'm so happy, this is amazing, I've never been so happy in my life!!!!! I hope this never ends!!" to, "Oh, well I guess something had to go wrong eventually, see you around". Now I know I'm being vague and I apologies for that, but like I said, I don't really want to go in to detail as it was very much a private matter.

Anyway, on to happier things. 

My mum came to the UK. That was nice. I guess she came at the best possible time... Sorry, I'm descending in to darkness again. Beam me up Scotty! We hung out for 4 days which was amazing. It was so nice to just have her around to give me hugs and cook me nice food again after having not seen her for such a long time. We went wedding dress shopping with my sister, I was really jealous of all the nice dresses she tried on. Kind of wished that was me... We went out for a fancy lunch and drank fake champagne, it was really nice. 

And I can't wait to go home for Christmas!!!! I'm so excited to just be around my parents and animals again after such a shitty time.

Uni is going alright, had my first breakdown and it's only been three months, new world record for me!! Had my first assessment on facial postiche. I turned my friend Sam (Male) in to a fabulous drag queen.. He wore a bright pink ball gown and long false nails. I hand knotted his moustache which took me three weeks to make, bloody joke!! Glued it to his face and did some gorgeous over the top makeup. He got proper in to it when I started taking the photos.. I'll post them later on once I've edited them.. Got lots to do before I can show them to the public.

Excited for next Saturday as we're going to a prosthetic event in Birmingham. Loads of famous makeup artists will be there. I'm going to be throwing my money at them and buying loads of crap I don't need but really really want! It's going to be so much fun!!!

Got some gigs coming up as well which will be awesome!!! Going to see The Fratellis at the end of November and then Four Years Strong in February!!

We've planned a trip to Amsterdam in February too which will be SIIIIICK!!! Always wanted to go and now I am with some of my closest friends. The end of this year is making up for how shit the rest of it has been. I hope to God 2017 is gonna be 300000000x better or I swear I'm gonna give up. Not even joking!

Hopefully Caitlin, Beth and Me will live together again next year in the same flat with the same rooms, I've grown to like them haha. They're ok really and we get along really well.

Aiden is coping well living with us, bless him. He doesn't half get bullied in to doing things for us. But we're a cute little family. Aiden's even going to buy a Christmas tree for the flat and Beth's mum is bringing the decorations. It's going to be so festive.

Went to the Christmas market last night with Ben and Annie. It really got me in the Christmas mood even though it's still only the beginning of November. We had mulled wine in cute little mugs and then we got mini pancakes and I had mine covered in Nutella.... It was so good. I did feel quite sick after though and when we got back to Annie's flat she decided to make cupcakes which were so good, but that didn't help my stomach which was hurting from the pancakes. We watched the incredibles as well which was so much fun. made us all feel like kids again.

One last thing: THE WALKING DEAD HAS BEEN SPOILED FOR ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, night. 

Nadia xxx

Hello From The Dark Side...

Hi,

I've had all summer off and not once have I written a post... Laziness has taken over my soul, I'm sorry!! I'll do better, I promise.

Anyway, so yeah. I can't actually remember what the last post was about. Did I tell you about Slam dunk?? If not, it was amazing, we had lots to drink and saw some amazing bands live, I GOT TO SEE PANIC AT THE DISCO!!!!! My life is complete. If by some amazing reason you already new about that, I'm sorry, ignore those last few sentences..

I feel hyper, not sure why. Maybe it's from all the excitement of writing again. Who knows.

Sooooo, this summer I went to France to catch up with my family. That was really nice, Jess came with me for a the first week. After that I got a great tan and went to the beach and had bbq's with the family and some of their friends. And I got to see my dog again after having not seen him for a year. I miss him loads already and I've only been back in the UK for about a month. 

Everyone's moving flats, so we've been very busy helping everyone move their things around. I'll be moving at the end of August which can't come quick enough. I prematurely took down all of my posters in my bedroom so now it looks really bare and I don't like it very much because it doesn't really feel like my room anymore, silly me thought I was moving out earlier then that. Apparently not as there is a guy living in the flat I want to move into and he just won't leave! How rude of him. I'm kidding (I'm not, I'm just not allowed to kick him out so I have to deal with it). 

I've been given my assignments for my second year of university, so I've gotten started on those. It's been nice getting back into it but I'm feeling stressed already and the new year hasn't even begun yet. How on earth am I going to cope??? 

Remember that piercing I got in my ear? Yeah, it never healed so I had to do some DIY removal skills to get it out. I couldn't sleep on my ear and I couldn't touch it without crying to in the end I gave in and took it out. I'm sad because it looked good and it actually stopped my headaches, the only problem is I got chronic earache instead. Not really sure which is worse to be honest.

I've a had a few more tattoos since the last post too... I need stopping, it's becoming a problem. I've had paw prints and some writing added to my body, at least they mean something to me and aren't just some random crap I liked the look of. No, they're sentimental crap instead. More to come in the future I'm sure of it!!! My mum is visiting for a month in October to go wedding dress shopping with my sister and I'm getting my bride maids dress too, I hope she doesn't pick out a hideous one! And me and my mum are getting tattoos while she's over. And probably doing a lot of shopping!!

During the summer holidays I've whittled my friendship group down and now only trust a few people. It's sad but it has to do be done and I'm hoping that the start of this new year, with new people moving in, I'll meet some new people and have more great times just like I did last year.

I'm looking forward to freshers, even though I'm not a fresher anymore.

Annie's gotten me addicted to Gossip Girl, we watch it religiously every lunch time when she's back from work. It's crazy!! And we've just started watching Prison Break too, which is really intense but so good!!

Yeah, you know how I said I'd started running... That's stopped. I can't be bothered any more and it's really scary outside in the dark. So, in September I'm joining a gym. And I will go, because I'll buy a membership which means if I don't want to waste my money I have to go!!! It can't fail!!!

Anyway, that's all for now. Time to go!

See you again soon

Nadia xxx 

It's Hard Being A Student.... Not.

So it's been over a month since I last wrote anything. I've been finishing my last few weeks of uni off and submitting all of my work. I have never been so stressed in all of my life before!! I had my first mental breakdown of the year the other week while trying to get all of my images for my portfolio edited and printed off. I broke down in the stairwell and balled my eyes out. Classy. 

But it's all done now and everything has been handed in, I can breathe and chill. The only problem now is that I have 3 and a half months worth of chilling to do, so far I've done a weeks worth and I'm already losing the will to live. 

I've got lots of fun things coming up which should take my mind off having nothing to do during the day. Friday we'll all be in Leeds ready for Slam Dunk on the Saturday. I am so excited, it's unreal!! I am going to fan girl so hard over Panic! at the Disco you have no idea!!!! Then we have the after party as well which will be good and we're staying in a house which will make the whole experience 200x better. Then I'm off to France for 3 weeks which will be so nice, I can finally see my dog and cats and smush their little furry faces, oh and I get to see my parents of course haha. My bestie Jess is coming with me for a week so there will be lots of sunbathing and chilling in the pool which I'm also super excited for. Then in August fingers crossed I can go to Leeds Fest, there are so many amazing bands I would love to see live!!! 

It's also my birthday in 3 weeks... WHAT??!! I'm going to be 21, how?? I want to be 10 again, watching tv after school and not having any problems at all. Seems like a lifetime ago. On the other hand I am super stoked to be finally taken seriously when I mention my age. Overall it looks like summer is going to be a good one!

Other things that have been going on other than finishing up uni, I got one of my tattoos worked on so it looks less shit. Now it looks pretty and girlie and not something I would usually have, but it's nice and it makes a good change. I also got my daith pierced (see image below for an idea of where that is) it's the red bit, if you're unsure which bit I mean.

It hurt like a bitch!!! The woman who pierced me was all like "Oh you've got your septum pierced, this will be nothing compared to that" let me tell you, she lied! She lied through her teeth!!! Out of all the piercings I have (and I have a lot) this one hurt the most, it almost made me cry! I had this done about 3 days ago and it's only just stopped hurting when I smile, but I still can't lay on that side of head, nor can I touch it. It's a pain in the arse. It's supposed to stop the intensity of migraines, it better bloody work or I will be so pissed off that I went through that much pain for nothing!! This piercing will never be changed, it hurt too much, so once it stops hurting, I'm never touching it again... Just in case... 

Wow, that was a rant and a half. Sorry...

In other news... Oh wait, that's it.

 No wait, there's more.

I'm excited to see what sort of cake Tom will be making me for my birthday, if you remember in one of my other posts I mentioned that he makes extremely good cakes and that they always look fabulous. I hope it's chocolatey, anything chocolatey is good in my eyes. 

Oh I also forgot, in less interesting news, I'm growing my hair long again because for one of my friends assessments she put hair extensions in my hair and they looked so amazing and cute and now I really miss my long hair, so I'm growing it!! :D! And the black is fading very slowly, my rooms are quite big and back to my natural hair colour (brown) and the ends have started going brown as well which is really strange. I also found a few grey hairs the other day. I'm getting old!! It's not fair!! Soon my whole head will be grey!!

Ok I'm exaggerating slightly but still. 21 and already finding grey hairs. Although I told my sister and she said I'm lucky because she found them when she was 16 hahah. Poor her.

Anyway, that'll do for now. Hopefully I'll still be alive after these 3 and a half months of doing nothing.

Thanks for reading.

Nadia xxx

Change Can Be Good

Hullo, nice of you to join me again. So it's been a few weeks (I think) since I last wrote anything, but nothing has really happened since then other than lots of work being done and stuff.

I've started running, which is crazy because it's fitness and normally I'm all for fitness, fitness whole pizza in my mouth, heuheheuheu. Anyway, on a serious note I have been running quite regularly, or, I've been trying too. It's hard to motivate yourself to leave your bed, especially when I've bought a cosy dressing gown that feels like I'm being hugged by a giant, soft teddy bear! But I feel a lot better once I've been out. I'm drinking a bugger tonne of water too. AND I've stopped drinking. I only drink on birthdays now. It's amazing how much better I feel, I wake up in the morning without a hangover and everything just feels great. 

It seems that everything is looking up, thing are going amazingly. My slam dunk ticket came, so I super excited for that, I'm going to fan girl so hard when Panic! At The Disco come on. Probably going to lose my voice, but it'll be totally worth it. Hopefully for my 21st birthday I'll get Leeds Fest tickets which would be amazing. My dad was all like "Don't you want something you can actually hold and cherish?" I said "Dad, the memories will be enough for me" Almost all of my favourite bands are playing and some of my closest friends will be there.

One of my friends who I know from moving to France, but is English and now lives in Stoke (It's all very confusing) came to Manchester to see me, it was so strange actually hanging out in a town and being able to understand what people are saying without having to translate everything. We've known each other almost 10 years, that's bloody crazy! We did some serious shopping and then gorged ourselves on American styled burger and chips and milkshake. We had to roll ourselves out of the diner, but it was totally worth it!!

Very excited to get my next student finance payment. The things I shall buy!!! A new phone is deffo on the cards as the one I have at the moment is starting to really irritate me and makes me want to throw it out of the window, but I have restrained myself as violence doesn't solve anything. It would make me happier but no, we do not do things like that!

Excited to go to France in July for a nice holiday and to finally see my doggy who I haven't smushed for 8 months, which is a long time to not have anything furry in your life. 

I feel like this has turned into things I'm excited for... Sorry about that, I'm just in a super excitable mood at the moment because everything is just going to well!!

I'll leave you all to the rest of your day, have a good one.

Thanks for reading, see you again soon.

Nadia xxx