This post is about saying goodbye and how sucky it is!!
Did you get the reference in the title? Name that film and win a hug.
So yeah, goodbyes. They are the worst. I have 5.5 days left before I move to a new city and have to make new friends who I will then have to say goodbye to again. It's a vicious circle. I've already said goodbye to a few people, only a few more to go. I get the chance to have a final drink with a good friend on Wednesday which I am so excited for but also really sad about having to leave her, and I still need to say goodbye to my best friend which will be the hardest, although we did live in different countries for 8 years and we got through that. At least this way we're only a train ride away.
I've always hated saying goodbye to people, then again I don't think any one really enjoys doing it. I always cry (which as you all know happens a lot to me in my life) and then the snot flows, I'm so sorry for that image think about flowers or cats....
My room barely looks like my room any more, I have a few posters up because I feel as soon as they come down that's it, game over. My shelves are empty and my dressing table void of make-up and hair accessories. It all looks very meek. My floor however is a mess!! By God never have I seen such mayhem before. Suitcases and boxes and clothes everywhere!!!! Literally everywhere. I should probably clean that up. MEH, what's the point? I've cleaned everything, no dust now. The windows have been cleaned as best as I could, I'm only small so I have trouble reaching places.
Changing the subject quickly, because it's been so hot outside recently my room has been a furnace!!! You know on snapchat when you take a picture you can change it to show the temperature, well, I did that and it came up with 30 degrees (I'd do that little circle thing that mean degrees but I can't find it on my keyboard) I felt like I was dying. Sleeping was a thing I longed for, I must have lost about 5 stone in sweat. Gross, sorry. Luckily it's raining now so it's gotten cooler. It feels less like an oven and more like a comfortable lodge house in winter. Not sure that's any better to be honest.
Blimey, how did I get so off topic??? I've forgotten what I was saying and I'm too lazy to re read what I've written so I'll just go on about something else.
I'm doing a lot of writing lately. I think its to take my mind off of packing up and moving. But I'm not sure, maybe I should ask my brain, hold on... "Hey Brain, why are we writing so much lately? Is it to not think about really stressful stuff?" "Naaaaaah mate, I'm just bored and this seems to be the best thing to do" Huh well there you have it. Do I sound crazy? I feel like I might be. Maybe because I'm writing it and not saying it out loud it makes me less crazy.
New subjects. Let me see. Ben & Jerry's Ice Cream (It took me a good 3 minutes to find the & sign on my keyboard, I'm losing my touch!) is so delicious. My favourite flavour is Cookie Dough, not sure why I'm sharing that piece of information with you, I think I'm just running out of things to say and I'm too scared to end this and go back to reality where I have to pack more boxes or fold clothes or something and be and adult and I realllllllly don't want to have to do that because it makes me nervous and then I panic and then I can't sleep and then things get worse and OMG BREATHE!!! Hee Hee Hoo Hoo, In. Out. IN. OUT. OK I'm good. Just had a mental break down. Sorry.
I think it's time to leave this here, I don't want to waste your time by making you read this pile of poop. I'll come back in a few days with something to interesting for you to read. Hopefully.
OK, hope to see you all again next time.
Love Nadia xxx